after the talk with her and him ytd ,
i manage to see things more clearly now .

to you , if u ever read this :

from what she said , she did so many things for you .
and i know u do like her alot .

maybe she does need u more than me ,
and i know u want to be with her .

u dont have to make up anything to me anymore ,
neither do u have to explain anything cos i understand .

dont be lost , i will back out ,
i just want you to be happy .

dont understand what i did to deserve this .
breaking my heart again and again ,
and just because of the same girl .

said so many things to you ,
hoping u will change , u will not lie anymore .

its just a joke why everytime u lie ,
then end up someone will come and tell me the truth .

i really want so much to give u another chance ,
but u nv appreciate what i did for you .

u said u care for me so much ,
but end up u are the one who hurt me the most .

looking back at our pics , thinking abt what we went thru ,
it really breaks my heart .

im not as chio as her ,
i wont leave money at ur doorstep like her ,
im not like her , keep msg and call u ,
i dont say things to make u gan dong like her ,
i dont have such a sad past like her ,
im the total opposite of her ,
but maybe 1 day u will appreciate me for who i am .

since the day we broke up ,
i keep hoping one day he will come back to me again .

but after sometime i realise i can totally forget abt him ,
i alredy moved on and im happy with my current life .

so why did he have to come back now ?

when i think abt he and the girl ,
and i see their pictures in fb , i feel so disgusted .

brings back memories of what he said to me when he left me ,
the pain i went through the 2 months ,
the amount of tears i cried for him ,
the number of stupid things i did after he left .

i think i need time to sort out my feelings .

someone just told me some things 2 days ago,
and now im thinking abt him all over again.

to you :

u already knew what i did,
but why u didnt confront me ?

instead u choose to avoid, u choose nt to book in.
u choose to go drink and know that slut.

u shld have give me a chance to explain myself,
and we might stil be together now.
but u just choose to listen what your friend tell u.
i only can say i did something wrong, but its nt as serious as u think.

just this wrong mistake i did, and now i got my retribution,
this is such a high price to pay for my one mistake.

few minutes of mistake lead to a breakup of 3yrs rs, ha.
how cruel can u be seriously ?

rember i told u i had a nightmare before ?
i dream that u left me for another girl,
and she was pregnant with your baby.
and u smiled and say u wanted to break up with me.

i woke up crying so badly and i called u.
 u comfort me and told me it will never happen,
you said u will never leave me,
the nightmare will never come true.

is this really retribution ?
i did those shit to ah kum,
now u are doing the EXACT same thing to me,
u say the same things to me what i say to ah kum 3 yrs ago.

i really hate u for doing this to me,
but at the same time i still miss u so much.

joses love you baby

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2010-07-15 5:08 AM

it was less than 3 months ago that u type this in my blog.

jerlyn love u too ! =)

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2010-07-18 5:00 PM

after all the times we have been through,

i wonder how u can just let it go so easily.  

am i the one who take it too seriously,

or u are the one who has no emotions ?

so now its really over between me and him.

don't say u will always love me,
when your always is just 3 years.
if u did truly love me before,
then why don't u give us a second chance ?
you just left without turning back.
what u said before were all lies,
obviously u are someone who see one girl like one girl.

all your stupid rubbish abt u cant control your feelings,
or is the truth u can't control  "something else" ?
if it was love between us this 3 yrs,
then i want to ask " does love fade away so easily ? "
why can you just give it up so easily,
is there nth good abt me worth for u to stay ?

isit wrong for me to treat u good ?
u said u stay with me bcos u are guilty bcos i treat u too gd.
but u don't have feelings for me anymore.
so the gf u want is someone who treats u not gd ?

so now i know, i shldn't treat my bf too gd.
bcos when a slut appears he will leave me ?

why did u waste so much effort and time on me ?
when in the end not a second chance is given ?

u tell me u dont want to commit to a rs,
but now u are tgt with the girl.
so now u are not comiting to her, then what are u doing ?
i feel so stupid right now thinking what u said.

i was hurt so many times in past rs,
i thought this time u will be different.
i guess i was too naive and stupid.

i truly believe fate brought us tgt,
but i only can blame myself.
bcos im not her, i cant keep your heart with me.

maybe bcos u know i love u, i will never leave u,
i will forgive u for anything u do.
so u take me for granted,
u know u didn't have to put in any effort at all.
but i will be willing to stay by your side.

all those shit about u say u want a lasting rs ?
its just a fucking joke seriously.

a lasting rs means doing your fucking best to make the rs last.
but what are u doing ? leaving me once she appears ?

if feelings can fade to nothing after 3 yrs,
if feelings can become pity and guilty after 3 yrs,
then what the girl say to u is true, u have no fucking idea what love is.
in your brain its just the word "lust".

then maybe both of u are perfect for each other,
bcos both of u dont know what love is.
the slut says she "loves" u after knowing u for only 1 month.
and u give up a 3 yrs rs just because u want to fuck her.

the worst mistake i ever did was giving u so many chances,
thinking one day u will change for me.
now i know im just nothing,
im just someone for u to pass time this 3 yrs.

im just the fucking idiot waiting for u to ORD.
entertaining u while u serving your ns.

so now u going to ORD,
u can give her all your full effort and time ?

3 words for you .
HAPPY FUCKING HER.

have been listening to " just a dream " on repeat.

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me Thinkin bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I travel back (uh)
down that road (road)
Will she come back? (Uh)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream.

I was at the top and now its like I'm in the basement
Number 1 spot, Now she find her a replacement
I swear now I can't take it
Knowing somebody's got my baby

Now you ain't around, baby I can't think
I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring
Cuz I can still feel it in the air
See her pretty face, run my fingers through her hair

My lover, my life, My shawty, my wife
She left me, Im tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I travel back (Uh)
Down that road (Yeah)
Will she come back? (back)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream.

When I be ridin
man I swear I see your face at every turn
trying to get my usher on but I can't let it burn
And I just hope that she notice she the only one I yearn for
No more will I be missing, will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love
I guess now I got my payback
Now im in the club thinking all about my baby
HEY, she was so easy to love
But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough
I'm going through it everytime that I'm alone
Now I'm wishing she would pick up the phone
But she made a decision that she wanted to move on
Cause I was wrong.

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I travel back (Uh)
Down that road (road)
Will she come back? (back)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream...

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
Now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything
X2

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I travel back (Uh)
Down that road (road)
Will she come back? (back)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream...
X2



if this song was talking about a guy,
it will be exactly what im feeling right now.

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